Home and Rested!

Vacations are a blessing. We enjoyed every second of Sanibel Island and are now planning on our trip back there, next year. We saw dolphins, a manatee, ate wonderful food and relaxed on the beautiful beach. We met some amazing people who were staying in the same condo complex. One family was from New York City- Peter and Julie. They were so friendly- one afternoon Peter grilled a bunch of hot dogs and we all pooled our food together and had a picnic by the pool. We prayed before we ate. We prayed to One God- The God who created us and brought us together through vacation. It was cool.

Karizma and Koke on the beach the first night.

Koke's first time to see the ocean. He was amazed.

A well rested and content couple.

June 13, 2009

Today would have been mom's 66th birthday.

We, with dad, went to her cemetery and sang "Happy Birthday" to her. Mom was always very adamant about calling everyone in her family or good friend on their birthday's to sing to them. If you weren't home- she left it on the answering machine or voice mail. So, you see, we had to sing, "Happy Birthday" to her.

We left her four roses- one for each person in her family.

Happy Birthday, mom!

Love you!

Faith

I have faith that God has everything under control. I wish I had no human emotion that conflicts with that Faith in God. For example- I wish I didn't have anger/bitterness. This anger/bitterness not aimed at God but at other people. I wish I didn't have to deal with impatience. I wish I didn't have sadness/disappointment. After saying those things I wish I didn't have- I know that that is not what God wants for me. I am human and was created to glorify God. I guess I am just reminding myself of that fact. I am human and was created to glorify God. I need to deal with anger/bitterness, impatience and sadness/disappointment to keep that focus. I can feel those feelings- but not let them stop me from what I was truly created to do.

On a lighter note- Sanibel Island is getting closer and I can't wait! This vacation is so wanted!!!!

Summer

Ah, summer break has officially started here at the Rutter home.  Koke's last hour of school was today.  Is it weird that I was a bit sad?  Koke is a different person now than when he started 3rd grade.  He's a better person.  He has not only grown in knowledge through school but spiritually through Christ.  Mom dying grew him so much.  I am proud of him- he took something difficult to deal with and made it better him.

This is Koke at the beginning of 3rd grade.
 

This is Koke on the last full day of 3rd grade.


I look at this picture and I see what he has been through in the past year. I have learned so much from this kid. I have been truly blessed through this kid. I love him!

Happy Summer Break!!!!!!!

The Truth

Just a Thought

 

Something happened to me this past year and I asked questions.  I was raw and unguarded with my emotion through my questions.  I didn't get my questions answered, but had clarity in the situation.  God was the one whom I should have gone to with my questions.  I can trust him and he knows my heart.  I have found when I think I can truly trust people with my heart- I can't (excluding a small handful).  I know there is a balance between the brain and emotion and I am not good with that balance.  I am trying to get that balance and currently- I have been keeping my mouth shut because, "if I can't say anything nice- I won't say anything at all" (quote from my mom).  I have an angry heart right now and need to balance it out with wisdom (I am asking God to give me) from my brain.  If I don't get the answers to my questions- I have and will trust in God to know he has everything in his hands.  He will use even the most sinful situations to his glory.

More New Normals Lie Ahead.

Mike announce Sunday that Doug is looking for a new church where he can preach more.  With that comes- selling our home, moving the kids to a different school, making new/more friends, finding a new home, finding a new Walmart, finding a new path to run in the mornings ect...  Now, don't get me wrong- these are all something new to figure out but also new adventures.  I look back over this past year (not even a year yet since mom was diagnosed!) and so much has changed!  It's crazy and somewhat unthinkable.  I will admit- I am a little scared about what continues to lie ahead- but I am doing my best to put my trust in God and His plan.  

So we can confidently say, "The Lord is my helper; I will not fear; what can man do to me?"

Please pray for our family as we head into our new adventure.